This is the first day of the rest of my life. I think my dad must say this all the time. Or when you ask the time, he says, “it’s later than it’s ever been.” Both sayings are true, and both are on my mind today. I find myself living in a constant state of anxiety. I wish I had done something differently, I wish I were doing something else, I feel I can’t possibly get everything done I need to, I’m so far behind I will never catch up. So I usually spend my time pacing in circles not doing anything, therefore I arrive back at the same emotional spot- full of anxiety and regret! And what’s worse, I’ve gotten nothing done in the process.
My biggest stressor right now is : AM I CHOOSING THE RIGHT THINGS? Should I apply for a real job? Should I just stay home and starve? Is it okay to make women beautiful with MaryKay? Is this house okay to rent? Should I find something cheaper? I am constantly trying to figure and refigure things out. I don’t want to make a mistake and have to suffer the consequences (I am already suffering lots of consequences.) This mental cycle is Endless and Impossible.
But today, I woke up knowing I was going to move forward with the opportunities before me. The Apostle Paul said in the book of Galatians that “the person who lives in right relationship with God does it by embracing what God arranges for him. Doing things for God is the opposite of entering into what God does for you.” (Gal 3:12 MSG) So I am moving forward in the job opportunity he’s provided with Mary Kay, the beautiful house he laid before us to rent. I am not going to spend all day in anxiety wondering if I have chosen correctly. I am going to have peace in what God arranges for me and go with it.
So, this is the first day of the rest of my life- the first day to begin anew, to trust and move forward, to not be anxious or second guess myself or God. It’s later than it’s ever been (wow- it’s 10:55) and I need to get rolling.
I will let you know tomorrow how how it goes 🙂